A love letter --- for Jojo

Dear Jojo,

"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, and it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, and always perseveres. Love never fails." I cor. 13:4-8

These words from the bible deeply struck me, questioning my love for you. I know I have not been a good wife. A lot of people may be saying I am not good enought for you, or that you're too good for me and that I don't deserve you. You let me hurt you. You let me say unpleasant words to you. I've said the most disrespectful words to you. And what did I get after saying those things? Silence. Not a single word from you. I flare up, and you just let me.

Not a moment did you hurt me. I get hurt because of my own doing. From the 8 years that were together, I still did not grow. I'm still that immature and insecure girl you know. But amidst that, you accepted me for what I am. You loved me unconditionally. You are always a good provider to us. Even if I'm too blind to see that you have already given your all for us.

I'm sorry. For all these times. For all the hurtful things I've thrown at you. You don't deserve it. You don't deserve me. I cannot undo it all. I cannot take back the moments that I've caused you pain. But, I can make use of the time I have now to change this. I can't promise you anything, dear. But I want you to help me. With your help and guidance, I know I can become a better version of me.

I love you. I need you. I need you because I love you. I am incomplete without you. And my love for you is far greater than anything that money can buy.

And thank you! For the love. For driving us to school and work safely everyday. For all the errands I've been letting you do, and not appreciating any of it. For the times you put up with my mood swings. For not talking back but always listening. For cooking for us. For treating us with good food. For saying yes to everything. For fetching Arki to school and accompanying him in all his trainings. For the extra extra efforts your putting into to provide for our family. For all the quality times. Thank you for being the best husband and dad.

Happy 8th anniversary, dear. Let's continue this journey for as long as we can. Let's not stop making wacky memories together. Let's travel those unpaved roads together. Let's get lost together. Let's celebrate life together. Life may be uncertain. It may be hard at times. But we are in this together to make life easy. I will always be here for you and Arki. Know that i love you both more than anything. Let's claim that 2019 will be our year. To learn new things together, to grow together. To get out of our comfort zones and accept every challenges that will come our way. I love you and Let's do this!

"I thank my God every time I think of you" Philippians 1:3

My Everything

Love,

Inkay


P.S. Ayaw lang gyud ko papasmuha, ok? And remember, "Happy wife, happy life" 😉

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